"Home" by Laila Haddad
Daddy I came home to Talcey Terrace for your heaven birthday and I want you to know that home isn't home without you here. It doesn't feel the same at all without your presence in this place. You made it my home. The sound of your footsteps in the hallway, knocking on my door in the morning with a cup of tea and your strong and sweet voice calling us to wake up and come eat the breakfast that you made. Even the sound of you washing down the patio with the hose on Sunday morning was a comfort to me. Picking fruit with you from the fruit trees, going for walks "to the cross" together, watching a movie together in the living room, me on the floor in front of your big comfy chair with your feet up, taking videos and pictures around the house and showing me all the new bushes and flowers that you were so proud of. The house is still beautiful daddy, because it has your hand print all over it, but it doesn't feel the same without your physical bodily presence here. It feels like a memory of something that was really good, or like the aftertaste of a delicious dessert. But it is missing the main thing. You. I slept with Lily in your bed last night, the very place where you left us, and it felt comforting and heavy. I am sitting in your office writing this and remembering all the memories we had in this room, I even used to like hearing the wheels of the office chair and the sound of you opening and closing the drawers on this desk. Every inch of this house has a million memories of you. But the think that I yearn for is making new ones. I wish you could hold Lily Rose and make her laugh by blowing bubbles on her feet and go in the spa with her and watching her kick and splash. But I can't. I can only remember the memories we have and wish for the day when we are reunited and can make new memories in the new earth when Jesus comes to restore all things. Until then I will be missing you and remembering you and longing for home, because home is now where you are. I love you daddy. I miss you so much words could never describe how much I miss you.
Love Laila Loo